This song means a lot to me as I grow up and grow older . So many things in my life , not just men but jobs, friends, thoughts, actions , feel like they fall in this category . This why didn’t I realize at the time what I had . Only to realize that the recapture of that thing , place , person or action is outside of your ability. You can not get the one that got away.
There are a lot of these for me , some because I truly didn’t see the merit on them and for those I can only sigh and move on but the ones that hurt are the ones that I missed out on because I was too chickenshit it make a move . I am never proud of myself when I miss out on something because I decided to be a chickenshit . I would rather fail miserably in trying than be in fear. I would like to try and fail beautifully.
In the spirit of that I have decided to sing today. You are free to listen or not to listen ( like you didn’t know that , right?) but understand that I am singing accapella and I did not do another take . I am a little pitchy at times I think but I am also woman enough today to sing one of my favorite songs to you and free of change .
This year has not been easy and it is only May , but then again this year has not been easy and it is already May . I am not going to wallow in the many yesterdays, the could have beens , the should have beens. I am going to sing. and I am going to dance . I am going to move forward and laugh . Topple , roll , squeak my red nose and freak some people out . In short I am going to embrace the fact that I may be a clown. But after I go forward I will never let fear make me a clown again .